Why I’m OK after not getting my dream job in Korea

I applied for a job in Korea earlier this year. The company was my dream company and I was a fan of their work since my first year in university. When I read that they were hiring designers, I was elated. I was even more excited when I saw that they required applicants to be fluent in Korean (and not necessarily Korean by birth).

My portfolio and CV was tweaked and I spent lots of late nights working on the edits. I wanted to make sure my Korean was perfect and that my design work was a of a standard good enough for this company.

Before sending in my portfolio, I prayed that if this was not God’s will, I would not get the job. And if it were God’s will for me to move to Korea and work there, that He would make the way. I placed all my trust in Him and sent my work through.

As I somewhat expected, I didn’t get the job (the company didn’t reply to my email). But it’s okay! I know that if God wanted me to be in Korea right now, I would have been there. For now, I can rest in the peace that God’s plan or me is to stay here in South Africa and work hard at the wonderful company I’m at now. God’s timing is perfect and he knows the desires of our heart. More importantly, He know’s what’s best for us!

I can rest in Him and know that He has plans for my future. Right now is not the time for me to work overseas, and that’s totally fine. Now I can direct all my energy into fostering relationships with friends and coworkers here in South Africa. I can put my all into my work here. I can love my family and spend time with them in person. God has me right where he wants me to be.

Here’s the video about my application process and how I feel about it not working out. Press CC to activate English subtitles.

 

Why am I a Christian?

Why do I believe?

I’m a Christian because I have experienced God working in my life, doing miracles and helping me grow. I’m a Christian because I’ve spent hours on my knees in tears and in prayer calling out to God for the truth. Calling out to God to save me from things happening around me. Calling out to God to help me understand why things are happening. And every time, in His own unique way and timing (cause He sees the bigger picture – he’s outside of time, omnipotent and omnipresent), my prayers have been answered – not always in the way I want, but in the way that God ordained.

God knows everything and can do anything

The Bible says in Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose” – this means all things WILL work out for the good – not “the way you want it to” but the way it needs to – by the all-knowing creator who know’s what’s best – all you need to do is love God and trust him. Faith is important – the Bible says to have faith like a child – that is unwavering and pure faith. When I have faith for God to do something in my life and He does miracles or makes things work out in the end, my belief and trust in Him grows.

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Things that bring me closer to God are plenty. I’m not a Christian because I blindly believe some doctrine my parents or church lead me to believe. I fully made the decision myself after many years of prayer and interaction with God. I guess you can say I’ve been a Christian my whole life but I gave my life to the Lord as a public declaration a few years ago and got baptized.

Questioning and doubting

I asked many questions and had many doubts. How do I know that I know that I know I’m believing the truth? I read the Bible to better understand His heart and His love for us. I pray because prayer is a conversation with God and not only a place where you can ask for things. I read theological books to better understand what’s written in the Bible and to see how other people find truth in it.

Is it real?

If you’re interested in Christianity, I suggest you listen to some sermons by Ravi Zacharias or Timothy Keller or John Piper. They are apologetics. Apologetics is a branch of Christian theology that aims to present historical, reasoned, and evidential bases for Christianity, defending it against objections. (quoted from Wikipedia). So if it is scientifically and historically proved that the Bible is true and real, then the words in the Bible are true, and if I’ve seen what’s written in the Bible come true in my life too, you bet I believe it cause I’ve felt it!

John Piper has a great website called Desiring God and there are excellent articles that relate to modern life as well as Bible studies and so forth. Here’s the full list of topics – the articles aren’t very long so some are really good reads.

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I consider myself a very logical and rational person – I want all the facts and all the answers. Apologetics helps me understand Christianity as fact. How and when Jesus lived. Who he was. How many copies of the Bible there were and how accurate those copies were translated into different languages. Etc. There’s a wonderful book called More Than A Carpenter by Josh McDowell that helps us practically understand who Jesus really was and why he had to die to save us.

Are you wondering or doubting?

Apologetics like Ravi Zacharias also help answer difficult questions we have about life, like, why does God allow suffering if He is a loving God? Well, can we know joy and love without suffering? Can we know light without darkness? Can we know moral good without bad?

If you’ve got questions, why not try reading the Bible once to make out for yourself what you believe. You can start at the New Testament. The Bible is not really one book – it’s a collection of books and letters written over the span of centuries by many different authors. Also remember there are other books and texts written around the same time as those that also speak about Jesus, confirming what is written in the Bible. Be open to the concept of God – pray to Him. Ask Him if he is real, to show it to you. God always answers and hears prayers. We just need to open our eyes and learn to hear him.

If you’re open to it, you can go to a church service. Maybe you have a Christian friend who will be glad to take you so you can see what it’s like.

Feel free to chat to me if you have questions, I’d be happy to talk!

Love, Lindie

What is a TCK?

TCK is short for Third Culture Kid. TCKs are people who grew up outside of the country or culture of their nationality. I grew up in Paris, Islamabad, Pretoria, Dubai and Japan, and moving around this much has had both positive and negative impacts on my life. This is the first time I cry on camera, which was a bit embarrassing, but I wanted to share my true feelings with you guys – also in the hope of meeting another TCK. Have you had similar experiences? Lots of love!